What a whirlwind it has been lately around here!
School is still going full steam ahead...well, I guess that's not completely true as we've had a couple of sputtering times but we are homeschooling year round this year and not ending until late-ish July so we have to be full steam ahead!
April was a time of such huge change for me personally!
I went from not working to accepting three, count 'em three!, positions in April! I am now helping to clean our church, I will be a Classical Conversations tutor next school year (super duper excited!) and starting this autumn I will be the director of a church camp!
God has blessed us in immeasurable ways and I just have to share a bit of a back story with you about all of this...
Emma is getting ready to go into the 6th grade. The parochial school in our area that we have been eying (for years!) starts when students are in the 7th grade. Needless to say that we have been praying like crazy about this decision and whether to send her to school rather than continuing to homeschool her. And we're still praying about that so prayers appreciated! However, with the talk of private school came the talk that if the kiddos are in school then I am going to have to go back to work.
Nick said this. I more or less just cried and threw things like a toddler.
I really and truly feel in my spiritual gut that I was made to be a momma at home. I am a traditional housewife all the way. Bread making, clothes washing, bed making kind of momma. And just the thought of taking myself out of that setting made me sick to my stomach. Literally.
But once I stopped crying and throwing things (not really, I'm not cool enough to do that) I was able to quiet myself to listen to the God voice that, of course, spoke some sense into me.
God was asking me, "why would I give you a desire to stay at home and not take care of your needs to make sure you're where I want you?"
That was a total duh, smack me upside the head, kind of moment. Of course God has this.
There is no need to worry.
So at that moment (back in February) I gave it to God. Red balloon out of my hand, wafting up to God, I didn't pull it back to worry more, I just sent it up to God.
And then in a weeks time it was like lightening. I got the camp job. I had a job at Notre Dame offered to me full time. I had a magazine writing job fall in my lap. A bank was interested in me freelancing for them. The church was wondering if I'd like to clean. We joined Classical Conversations and there was this opportunity to help out.
It was unbelievable.
There is nothing else I could say other than truly, jaw dropping unbelievable.
And this isn't about me, this is about God and what He can do in your life, my life, anyone's life, when we just let it go to let Him. Let Him.
Friends, wherever you are in your life right now, whatever you are going through, I hope this can be an encouragement to you. Please let go of the worry. Of the doubt. Of the feeling that you have to have control and have an end in sight and know where you are going. Because you don't. God's got this. Truly he does.
So open your hand and release your red balloon. Imagine it flying up to God and you aren't going to even try to take that worry and that burden back. Just give it to Him and trust him with it.
I promise He has good in store for you. More good than you'll be able to shake a stick at.